Dark Times

Things seem so dark sometimes. It's been a really rough time these last couple of weeks, both personally and on a larger scale. A family member who means a great deal to me is currently in the hospital, having been diagnosed with a serious illness. The outlook is said to be very, very good at this point, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't still scared and worried. I watched another family member die from the same disease when I was nine years old and it's hard not to fear the worst after that.

Meanwhile, while I deal with that, I also have to deal with all the crap that everyone who cares about this country and it's future are dealing with, and the prospects there seem far worse sometimes. Watching Alito sail through his confirmation and take his seat on the Supreme Court was no picnic and the news about the latest hate crime against gays, this time in New Bedford, Massachusetts, scares and sickens me.

This world has never been an easy place to live, especially if you're gay, but sometimes you fool yourself into thinking that things are getting a lot better. And I suppose they are, on many levels. But the religious right mentality is what leads to hate like this, and it's that mentality that is in control of our entire Government at the moment. Waking up to that thought every morning makes me not want to get out of bed at all.

I wanted to be voicing my sadness, anger, and frustration here on the blog, but I've gone through a rather grim period of 'What's the point?'

I mean, what difference does me rambling on make? I'm just one voice, and a voice that isn't very frequent or consistent at that.

But, if nothing else, it's another voice letting the rest of the country and the world know that the Bush/Alito neo con narrow minded, hate filled mentality is not my mentality, not the mentality of the majority of this country.

Sometimes, we just have to do the best we can and get through each day snatching what hope we can from wherever we can.